The morning simply isn’t my favorite time of the day. Two alarms and three snoozes later, I found the strength to roll out of bed. Struggling to open my eyes, I stumbled into the bathroom to prepare for the day. But as they opened I became fixated on the mirror, which is highly unusual for me being I’m not one who spends hours getting ready.
This day, something was just different. I couldn’t leave the mirror. I found myself in a daze, staring at the woman looking back at me. As I began to examine, the depth of her eyes caught my attention. What was she thinking about in that moment? The day ahead? Her family? Or just life in general?
Of course the woman staring back in the mirror was actually ME! Sad to say, but at that moment I didn’t even recognize myself. I was trying to figure out, “Who am I?”
Quite frankly, I find this to be an extremely tough question for me to answer. But, it’s a necessary one I need to know the answer to. How can I know what I’m capable of if I don’t know who I am? It’s not possible! Especially since the two go hand-in-hand.
Throughout the day, “Who am I?” was weighing on me really hard. Almost to the point of tears because I couldn’t figure it out. The first things that come to mind were the everyday hats I’m blessed to wear – wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend and so forth. Then all of my accomplishments flashed before me. All of these good things put a smile on my face.
But I started to wonder, what happens when the hats I wear get taken away, or the accomplishments stop?
The negative thoughts I choose to teeter-totter on start entering my mind and change my identity. I then begin to believe the lies that I’m not:
- Good enough
- Strong enough
- Smart enough
All lies that could limit me from seeing my dreams come true.
Then it dawned on me. The reason I can’t answer the question, “Who am I?” is because my identity lies in the hats I wear and accomplishments I’ve achieved. As they change, so does my identity! I’ve been treating them as if they’re synonymous to God’s word, which is totally wrong. His word is the only unchanging and concrete thing in my life.
It wasn’t until I dug deeper into God’s word that I could answer the question, “Who am I?” All because of what He has said about me:
- I am good enough (1 Peter 2:9)
- I am strong enough (Philippians 4:13)
- I am smart enough (Genesis 1:27)
- My voice does matter (Matthew 5:16)
- I can make a difference (1 Thessalonians 5:11)
And the bible is filled with so many more affirmations I can hold on to.
Now, when I stumble into the bathroom to prepare for my day, I boldly look in the mirror and recognize the woman on the other side.
I can confidently identify her, as Eboni Littlejohn, and she is all God says she is and will complete everything God created her for.
So now I have a little exercise for you. Go find a mirror and see if you recognize the person standing in front of you. Once you have, snap a selfie and tag Heroic Inspirations on Facebook, Twitter or Instagram use the hashtag #WhoAmI. I’ll randomly select a winner for a gift card to Starbucks!
Don’t forget, go to God’s word and discover the answer to the question “Who am I?